dawdling vs lounging

Let's be real. I cannot lounge. It's not simply that "I am not good at it" (implying an acquired skill to be excellent at this past-time), nor do I have an aversion to stillness, but I have always  rejected non-productivity. 

I do not mean that we are never meant to rest, though. Recently, I have discovered, rather scratched the surface on, the joy and necessity of sabbath- sacred time to delight in our God, holy moments. Sabbath evokes dawdling. A need to 'waste time with God'. This is not lounging. Dawdling is productive, producing growth in my heart and mind- giving rest and feeding my heart. Words that sink in from book, song, nature, mediums of color and art, all through the Spirit. Dawdling in the Holy wraps my heart with good words and life. Producing thanks, stillness, solemnity. 

It is in the times that I labor that I produce, and it is in the times that I rest that I allow God to produce in me. I dawdle, He works. Just some thoughts.